Now that i think about it… I would have done the same thing. Im slightly proud of the fact that you went out for exactly what you wanted instead of dragging me along half heartedly. For that, im thankful. I never needed to settle and i never wanted someone to settle for me. I guess you did both of us a favor and i completely get it now. I was never mad, but i completely understand now even though i was hurt. I am not gonna lie though, ive changed how i look at a lot of things now. It kinda scares me how that was the last straw for me and that i really dont give a fuck now. By that point i have been beyond exhausted of being hurt. And now i have to really think about stuff cuz i think in the midst of me not caring, i think i am losing sight of what i wanted in the first place. I dont know what to think about that.
