I am the least honest with my parents. Im pretty straight forward with everyone else but with my parents…i dont know why but its like second nature to lie to them. I honestly can not stand it. They only know the things i want them to know…about 92% of my life… They have no clue. Is it just me feeling this way or does every child go through this? It is exhausting. Id rather not explain anything anymore because they have missed so much. And im sorry but just because everything is good now does not make up for those two years…it doesnt. And even if i were to explain…i just dont know how. I learned what i have to say and what i have to do to not get in trouble…and im good at it. Why would i stop? If you knew anything i wouldnt be here right now. Its like a default action for me to not get you angry like that…not again. Not ever again. I know what i can get away with and i know what lines not to cross. All i am trying to say…i dont want my kids to feel this way with me. There are a lot of things i wish i could talk to my parents about, there is plenty i would say to them…but that wont happen.