Ive been scared this whole time. I still am. Idk what im doing, but i guess it doesnt matter anymore.
Why i liked you so much? Idk. I think ive already forgotten. Maybe it was the sex. Okay whatever. But after last time? It was different and i do not look at you in the same light. Honestly, ive never felt so used in my life. It was animalistic. It left me feeling dirty and it has not stopped playing in my head since it happened. Im not giving you an excuse but i get it. You were drunk and you just lost your job. It still doesnt give you the right. I have been crying since that day. I said no. And you still tried to force me, over and over again. All i ever wanted was to please you, and i tried so fucking hard. Now i dont even know why. You are a grown man acting like a fucking child using me up to nothing for the past fucking year. Its my fault. I let you, i gave you the benefit of the doubt, i gave you every oppurtunity. Good job. I applaud you. You got everything you wanted. In the past year you graduated, were the envy of your cousin, lived the single life, kept and manipulated a secret (me), got the job, and now have lost it. Why i liked you so much? I don’t even know why. Im done.
I swear, I am going to reblog this the entire time I see it.
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Says my close friends and family.
This explains sooo much…